Friends and work load

When the world says, “Give up,”Hope whispers, “Try it one more time.”~Author Unknown

I cried myself to sleep last night because I am having a hard time. While I am busy polishing everything behind the scene things in front of me are rotting.

A month ago my light bulb lit and convinced me to pay tribute to a man who made a path for my life journey. I know it will never be easy but I want to try my luck. 

I turned to my friends, my college closest friends. The spur of the moment made us all giddy and excited to see the outcome of our dear project. Months passed and everything seemed okay – letters, lights, sounds, tickets, and other back-end necessities. 

Last week the actress for the lead role backed out. We said okay… Let’s find another one… 

Today another actress backed out… 

Since they were my friends I am saddened by the incident. No matter how I analyzed it I cannot see the reasons why….

I should not rationalize BS, according to my adviser. 

I need to find another actress… 

Part of me is feeling guilty, if not for my idea friendship will be smooth sailing… 

Other colleagues won’t believe for the actresses who backed out. I let them read the conversation which I believe started the fiasco… 

[It was Bmove though but that is the way it is]

What did I learn? 

I learned that working with friends professionally could be a pain in the ass. All of you want to be a leader; all of you want their inputs to be chosen…

You cannot thoroughly decide because you have to wait what they have to say… Yes, that is the fair thing to do (because you respect the friendship) but waiting in vain could stagnate the project, especially if the party cannot put their hands and hearts on it. 

Each person has priorities, each person has problems. 

I cannot press responsibility to them nor be demanding of their time. 

All I can do now is yes… MOVE ON… 

I won’t stop now… I won’t quit what I started… 

People have their reasons, true friends will understand you, true friends will never leave you… 

Professionally speaking no matter how B***CH your colleagues and boss can be you shall focus on your goal and work casually. 

I cannot hang on to someone who is not willing to do the fight with me… 

I only have one goal… 

And yes… 

If making this tribute and feeding my hope of his life would make me lose my friends… 

I guess I don’t have a choice… 

Waiting for your prayers… 

S

 

 

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