Struggling Octopus

Bike theft Venn diagram
Bike theft Venn diagram (Photo credit: Steven Vance)

My mind is in complete chaos now.  I must have been crazy to magnet of all the possible responsibilities my circumstances have to offer. I mean I can just sit here and wait for my corporate progress but instead I fight, I struggle. I struggle to believe that someday all my hard work will pay off.

 

Everyday I learn that the more I expand my horizon the more the earth shrink to a size of  a penny. How could I say that? No matter how many people are around you there is one spot in your being that no one touches. No one attempts to be part of because in the first place you are not ready to make yourself an open book to the world. Why would you do that? Would that matter? Is your story inspiring enough or as catchy as naked Miley on the wrecking ball?

 

My title connotes my juggled head. I am sad because I don’t meet my expectations. Expectations where I will only meet if I have eight tentacles. Since I only have one pair of hands how am I getting things done by now?

 

I seek help.

 

People need each other.

 

Problem is the people who I turn to have their own business. The gray area in our Venn Diagram only concentrates on the scrolling text when the lights went off.  There is an illusion of connection and the thin line of friendship makes the situation more complicated.

 

I can’t blame people. I can’t beg.

 

All I can do now is to stretch my resources and be with people who can reciprocate (willing to reciprocate) this good cause I am targeting.

 

xx

 

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2 thoughts on “Struggling Octopus”

  1. Hi Sam! I also fall into that trap sometimes, of feeling that there is soooo much I need to do, and so little of myself that I’m spreading too thinly. That’s why I have the life list that I blogged about before; it’s posted on my cubicle to get me back in focus whenever I start becoming a “struggling octopus,” to use your words.

    Have you heard of the advice, “Major on the major”? I learned something from a pastor named Wayne Cordeiro:

    “Eighty percent of what you do, anyone can do — answer the phone, check your email, take notes at the meeting, fill out reports, etc.

    Fifteen percent of what you do, anyone with some basic skills can do — run your software program, deal with clients, operate specific machinery, etc.

    But the last 5 percent, no one else can do — be your spouse’s mate, be your children’s mother or father, build your relationship with God, etc.

    This last 5 percent is what is truly worth our time. The other things might be good, but these things are great. These things are worth investing your life in.”

    What would you put in that list of things belonging to your essential 5%?

    Also, try thinking 20, 30, 40 years from today. Think of your last days on earth. What are the things you’re doing now (and what are the things you should focus on) that would matter and have significance when you reach that point in your life? 🙂

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