*Space shall remain in your togetherness. For the pillars of the temple stand apart and the oak and cypress grow not in each other’s shadow.*
The words above hit my head as I practice to detach my self from the man I love. I am not leaving him though but now we are ready to spread our own branches and grow separately but definitely side by side. His words uttered last night made me realize that I consumed almost all his life because he was too worried not to neglect me. Maybe we have the same fear that we don’t want this relationship to fall apart.
Graduating from high school transformed ourselves into a mature human beings. I am not saying that we are totally mature now because we still have this attitude like other couples have. Ever since we got together, we were college students then, I can still remember our first studying session where he has his physics reviewer on his hand and while lying on his lap I was reading my communications theories.
I was slightly devastated when he lost his scholarship and overheard that reason because he has a new girlfriend, that’s me. He told me it was not true his course was hard, of course it was, Mathematics, Calculus, Electronics name it. I am proud to note that I still have straight 1.00 both minor and major subjects, Mass Communication, they say is a practical course.
Years had passed, I finished my Bachelor of Arts in Mass Communication – Broadcasting I am now working. The year followed and the smooth sailing ever romantic ride we are having bumped into a boulder, which I think no major at all. From everyday dates and intimate weekends we slow down seeing each other during the day that our time only fits or just whenever will exert efforts, we take turns waiting and visiting one another. He had night classes, deadlines, and all. I have nothing but facebook and twitter. The fourth quarter of the year, I became busy and still he was more busy than ever. Several months had passed, I finally adjusted to that set up and finally he finished his course, Bachelor of Science in Electronics and Communications Engineering but this is not the end of his journey. He is now preparing for the Board Exam.
I really want him to get the title, not because he’ll have a two thumbs up approval from my parents, but it leads him to great a career, more opportunities, and of course he can make more money. A future that is temporarily blank for us, I don’t know if I am still be part of it. We talked about marriage, having a family but that shows no guarantee that in the end it’ll still be us.
*The only constant thing in this world is change…*
He told me last night that starting on Monday he’ll now involve blood, sweat, and tears in studying. Sad because I will be away from my best friend, the guy I constantly call whenever I have exciting stories to tell or just whatever happened to me the whole day. He’s my number one fan and a good listener, he can just take my breath away when he starts to laugh at my lousy jokes and his comment is very intellectual, one thing I like about him. I even suggest that I will accompany him when he studies but he said no. Maybe his right, he needs to be apart from destructions. I can be a destruction when things get kinky right? haha
I will now do my best to support him, extend my patience when he will not be able to see me or even can’t talk hours to me. I will do my best to avoid petty fights about nothing. Maybe the remedy I need is a hobby, somebody to talk to, I wish my girl friends are not busy. I don’t want be a nuisance, I wanna be his inspiration. And I will be available whenever time of the day he needs me. I will pray for him to reach his ambitions.
I am now planning to study again, hit the gym maybe. I will definitely miss the usual things we do but this is for the better.
We are not separating ways we will just allot more time to do professional business.
We might have a limited time to console our tactile bodies but I tell you, the commitment will remain.
Thus, I pledged. The only changed that will happen in this relationship we have is our physical appearance, not our love for each other. ♥
This is just a chapter (chapter 47, I shall say) in our relationship. I am sure the next chapter will be more exciting than ever. Him saying “That time you will be Mrs. Adea” . I am more excited for the life we’ll have together as we do the things we have on our list. I love this guy so much and I am happy that aside from falling deeply in love with one another every single day, we are growing to be a better individual together.
*Behind every great man is a great woman*